HOLY SHIT.

I haven't done any work this entire spring break.  I'd say that's a bad thing, but in my opinion it's pretty amazing.  The last four years of my life I have been so overly disciplined in doing my work that it's sick.  Human social experiences were at a minimum, as was fun.  This week all I did was have human social experiences AND play video games.  It's a super awesome change.

Maybe I shouldn't worry so much about my grades?  Even when I slack off I tend to get As... caring that extra bit won't make a difference (except in +'s or -'s which this school doesn't record anyways).

It's just really weird that I'm living it up my senior year of undergraduate when most people went through this stage when they were freshman :P Maybe it's because my parents never had a tight leash on me as a child... I dunno.

But at the same time... I really don't want to become too lazy... plus I'm totally going to stress myself out and give myself another ulcer (!) if I procrastinate... I have an 8 page paper due in 3 days and I don't even have a topic... I'm sure the topic, research, and writing will only take me one day... BUT I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DO IT.  Ugh.  Baroque architecture is cool and all, but I'm not crazy passionate about it, like I am with Baroque statuary... except Borromini.  I FUCKING LOVE BORROMINI.  I always love the crazy ones - plus his works are beautiful and have a surreal quality to them that is 100s of years ahead of his time.

But enough about that.  I still am obviously a complete nerd for art history.  I can talk about art all day long (too bad there's no one to talk to but myself, which makes me crazy like Borromini).  I mean... I want to write good papers and submit high quality work... but... I'd rather play video games in this case because western art isn't really my dig you dig?  :\ ugh.  I'm taking Hellenism and baroque - the two classic western movements I like - and still... I don't know.  I long for the east.

Next semester (because I'm staying on an extra one as stated below) I plan on taking non-western art history and history courses.  That will be nice.

I really miss being in a Japanese class.  I'm doing independent study kanji right now and it is TORTURE.  It's really hard... and I'm not talking to anyone and I'm going crazy, because I don't want to lose my skills.  I have DREAMS about speaking Japanese with people.  OMG.  I just need someone to practice with :\ man... I need more friends.

Anyways... I'm going to go back to lying on my couch playing pokemon and wondering if I'll do any school work... SHIT.  I also have sculpture and drawing homework... oh man :\