5:53 PM

Goya's Ghosts

I just watched Goya's Ghosts, and it was fantastic.  I've always loved Fransico Goya - especially his darker work, which is showcased in this movie.  It's probably a mixture of my morbidity and passion for atheism, but they are truly beautiful works.  I recommend it to everyone.


Also, Javier Bardem is incredibly talented at playing 'the bad guy' I've noticed.  However, my observance of his work only extends to this film and No Country for Old Men (which I also loved, probably due to my love of violence and passionate drama).

Well, after watching Klimt the other evening (which I also adored, maybe my love of the female figure) I have created a goal for myself this winter break:  watch a bunch of art-related movies.  This should be fun.  If anyone has any suggestions, let me know.  I'm accumulating a list right now.  I have been away from movies for far too long, because of all the stress this last semester!

If anyone would like to watch some with me, I'd love to have the company.

7:32 AM

On a Slightly Less Intelligent Note...

So, I've been watching a lot of programs about space travel lately... especially involving Mars.  I was also suffering from the monthly (seasonal in my case) disease that only women get, and started thinking... How do women menstruate in space?  Strangely, this morning I logged onto facebook and someone posted a link to a site that explained it all:


http://www.straightdope.com/columns/read/2827/how-do-female-astronauts-menstruate-in-space

I'm done with my finals in a few hours, and most likely will be bored out of my mind later today.  So, look forward to a random post about my views on genetics.  Also, I just watched a Today Show segment with Carrie Fisher - she apparently just came out with a new book called Wishful Drinking.  I want it.

5:04 PM

Gender in Japanese Buddhism: Images of Kannon

I haven't posted on here for a while...  Would you like to read a not-too-long, but incredibly genius paper?  It's mine... so I warn you I might've gone a bit overboard on the 'genius' part... but I'm very, very proud of my baby.  I read a lot of primary sources for this (alas, I did not get a chance to cite them, as my paper would be too long for the class requirement), and also did a bit of original research.


I wish there was an easier way to post documents... damn you internet for failing me this one time. 



Gender in Japanese Buddhism: Images of Kannon

Introduction

Medieval Japanese society viewed women as a negative product of their biological and spiritual pollution, yet their female Buddhist deities are viewed as unambiguously positive. In order to become enlightened females had to transcend their female characteristics and become male (Pandey 325). This sexual transformation is ostensible in figures of the Bodhisattva Kannon, who was generally perceived as a female bodhisattva, but often retained male characteristics (Faure 360).

Women in Japanese Buddhism
Buddhism in Japan was not easily accessible or incredibly tolerant of women. In order to be ordained as a nun women had to follow the Eight Strict Rules, which made them subordinate to all monks, regardless of their own rank (Faure 23). Subservience was a common factor in all relationships to women in Japan – in childhood they must be subservient to their parents, then to their husbands, and then to their sons after the death of their husbands (Faure 62). Also, Buddha hood was believed to be impossible for a woman to reach unless she was first reborn as a man (Pandey 325).
In both Shinto (Japan’s native religion) and Buddhist beliefs women were seen as impure due to taboos concerning menstruation and childbirth. The vile product of these events, blood, was considered to pollute the earth and anger the earth god. It was even believed that women who died in childbirth (a horrible taboo of both blood and death) would be sent to a level in Buddhist hell where they would forever swim in the menstruation of women (Faure 69). These taboos concerning women and their impurity did not allow for women to enter many temples. Most of the temples they were allowed to enter were dedicated to Kannon (Faure 237).
However, women were not completely seen in a negative light. In the collection of stories titled Kankyo no Tomo (A Companion in Solitude), written by a monk by the name of Keisei in 1222, several women are shown in a moral light and used as examples for Buddhist women. These women triumphed over what were called the Seven Vices of Women (they arouse men, are jealous, deceitful, vain, attached, have uncontrolled desire, and are the source of foul events like menstruation, pregnancy, and child birth). Paired with the Seven Vices were the Five Obstructions of rebirth for women – they could not be reborn as Brahma, Sakra, Mara, a cakravartin, or a Buddha (Pandey 326). These moral tales by Keisei often tell of women who triumph over their innate obstacles in order to aid men in reaching enlightenment. In one tale, a well-respected monk falls for a beautiful woman. In order to cure his delusion she removes her make-up, slathers her clothing in blood, and paints her body in order to create the illusion that her body is rotting. The monk then thanks the woman for alerting him to the illusion of appearances and becomes enlightened (Pandey 326-9). However, the duality implied by these vices and obstructions, which create gender difference, are against Buddhist doctrine, which would state that these are not innate qualities, as all states are illusionary and arbitrary.
Women were also seen as a positive force in Buddhism in the form of “Jade Women”. These women performed similar duties to the woman mentioned in the Kankyo no Tomo above. They transmitted the sexual desire of men in order to allow them to be reborn into the Pure Land. Kannon was often depicted as a “Jade Woman” who would come to monks in their dreams. This is often seen as part of the bodhisattva Kannon’s vow to save all beings (Faure 205-7).
The Bodhisattva Kannon and the Lotus Sutra

Kannon is the Japanese bodhisattva of compassion and mercy and is intrinsically tied up with the Amida Buddha and the idea of the Pure Land (Edmonds). The Bodhisattva Kannon appears in the 25th chapter of the popular Lotus Sutra. In this chapter it shows her thirty-three transformations that she undergoes in order to save all sentient beings – this is Kannon’s pledge. If one simply recites the name of Kannon they will be saved from the seven misfortunes (fire, flood, wind, weapons, demons, punishments, and thieves) as well as the three poisons (greed, anger, and ignorance) (Tanabe 1989).
She is also well known for her ability to remove obstacles, and was thusly revered by women for she had the ability to remove the five obstacles that kept women from attaining enlightenment (Faure 66). As mentioned above she was also seen as a “Jade Woman” who would satisfy the sexual desires of monks in order to aid them in attaining enlightenment. This would either happen in their dreams, or in the form of a woman or young boy seen as an avatar of Kannon that would have preformed sexual acts upon them (Faure 205-7).

Gender Depicted in Images of Kannon
The common forms of Kannon that are depicted are the eleven-headed Kannon, 1000-armed Kannon, white-robed Kannon, true form Kannon, and the Nyoirin Kannon. The white-robed cannon is the form most often connected to the feminine. Kannon can often be identified as having the Amida Buddha in her crown (Edmonds).
Kannon is often described as female, however images of her often retain many male characteristics. This may be due to the fact that it was believed that a woman had to go through a sexual change and attain a male-like body in order to achieve enlightenment. Thusly, maleness is a prerequisite for enlightenment (Pandey 325).
 

Fig. 1 Nyoirin Kannon, ca. 1250-1330, wood with lacquer and gilding, Art Institute of Chicago.  Photo courtesy of the author.


Fig. 2 Nyoirin Kannon, early 9th Century, colored wood, University of California San Diego.  Photo courtesy of ARTstor.


Fig. 3 Bodhisattva Avalokiteshvara in the Form of Chintamanichakra (Nyoirin Kannon), early 14th Century, Cypress wood with pigment, gold powder, and cut gold leaf, Asia Society Museum.  Photo courtesy of ARTstor.


Nyoirin Kannons are one of the most common images of Kannon (fig. 1, fig. 2, fig. 3). The Nyoirin Kannon is named for the magical, wish-granting jewel she holds in her hand (Bogel 30). In figure 1 the jewel was lost. The figure appears feminine in her face, delicate fingers, and hair. However, the chest is quite flat and masculine. A similar aesthetic can be seen in the Nyoirin Kannon of figure 3. However, this Kannon points upward, perhaps identifying the Buddha and his teachings as the true jewel of Buddhism. The Nyoirin Kannon in figure 2 displays more feminine traits and is one of the earliest images of Kannon. The feminine qualities can be best seen in the figure’s eyes, which seem to linger between sensuality and a realm beyond it. This is most likely due to the fact that it is an esoteric Buddhist image, and embodies the mysterious ideals of several esoteric sects in Japan (Bogel 34). The multiple arms in the case of the Nyoirin Kannon are used in order to convey all of Kannon’s specific attributes and mudras. Her aspects include the wheel, a pink lotus, the jewel, and a rosary (Getty 55).



Fig. 4 Kannon, the Bodhisattva of Compassion, 14th Century, Japanese cypress with gold and inlaid crystal, Museum of Fine Arts Boston.  Photo courtesy of ARTstor.


Fig. 5 1001 Images of Thousand-armed Kannon, ca 1173-1256, lacquer, gold leaf over wood, Sanjusangen-do, Rengeo-in, Kyoto.  Photo courtesy of ARTstor.

The arms in the 1000-armed Kannon (fig. 5) are used in order to convey her ability to aid and save all living beings, as stated in the Lotus Sutra. In order to do this she would of course need many arms (Getty 55). The figures in figure 5 convey a large amount of femininity in their alluring body proportions and posture. The bodily proportions of these figures are reminiscent of Indian Yakshini figures, which represent fertility. They also appear to have slight breasts and incredibly feminine faces. These same qualities can be seen in the true from Kannon in figure 4.


Fig. 6 White-Robed Kannon (Byaku-e Kannon) (detail), early 15th Century, ink on silk, Asia Society Museum.  Photo courtesy of ARTstor.


Fig. 7 Suigetsu Kannon (White-Robed Kannon) (detail), 17th Century, ink and colors on silk, Philadelphia Museum of Art.  Photo courtesy of ARTstor.

Figure 6 and figure 7 are details from examples of white-robed Kannons. The white robed Kannon is believed to represent Kannon’s paradise, one of the many different pure lands that existed in Pure Land Buddhism (Ford 35). Both examples show feminine figures, however figure 6 seems much more feminine and elderly. They both have a floral tattoo on their chests, however figure 5’s appears much more abstracted and looks almost like chest hair. Even though these images are still slightly androgynous, they present much more obviously feminine qualities.


Fig. 8 Kannon the Merciful Mother, Kano Hogai, 1888, silk and pigment, Tokyo National Museum of Fine Arts and Music.  Photo courtesy of ARTstor.

The images examined of Kannon appear to form a trend of feminizing the bodhisattva over time in Japan. This trend can be seen continuing on into later images of Kannon, even on into the 19th century in Kannon the Merciful Mother (fig. 8). This image is both feminine in the physical depiction of the bodhisattva, as well as her nurturing and motherly aspects that are alluded to in the image.

Conclusion

The overt maleness seen in images of the Kannon is a reflection of the Japanese society that crafted them. Buddhist women in Japan needed to overcome several supposed obstacles of femininity to even consider becoming serious members of the Buddhist faith – even then it was not believed possible for most women to reach Buddha hood or become a bodhisattva. Regardless of this Kannon was perceived as a female bodhisattva and became one of the most venerated of all the bodhisattvas in Japan. The rising popularity and feminizing of the bodhisattva Kannon may have lead to the gradual acceptance, and even admiration, of many female Buddhist figures and sanghas in Japan.


Works Cited

Bogel, Cynthea J. "Canonizing Kannon: The Ninth-Century Esoteric Buddhist Altar at Kanshinji." The Art Bulletin 84 (2002): 30-64.

Edmonds, Richard Louis et al. "Japan." Grove Art Online. Oxford Art Online. 18 Nov. 2008.

Faure, Bernard. The Power of Denial - Buddhism, Purity, and Gender. New York: Princeton UP, 2003.

Ford, Barbara B. "The Arts of Japan." The Metropolitan Museum of Art Bulletin 45 (1987): 4-56.

Getty, Alice. The Gods of Northern Buddhism. Rutland, VT: Charles E. Tuttle Company, 1962.

Pandey, Rajyashree. "Women, Sexuality, and Enlightenment: Kankyo no Tomo." Monumenta Nipponica 50 (1995): 325-56.

Tanabe, George J., and Willa J. Tanabe, eds. The Lotus Sutra in Japanese Culture. University Of Hawaii P, 1989.

Watson, Burton, trans. The Lotus Sutra. New York: Columbia UP, 1993.


Well... that was a pain and a half to fix up to post.  I hope if anyone reads it, they enjoyed it thoroughly.  Also, if you have any constructive critiques I'd be more than glad to hear them, as I plan on fixing this paper up to make it longer and lovelier.  I intend to make this a major piece of my undergraduate portfolio.

Also... please do not steal my work, as it will sadden me.

7:04 PM

Adil is Silly

8:33 PM

Baroque Classical Music, Roger Fry, and Henri Focillon

I am currently enjoying some Baroque Classical music a la Pandora.  I haven't really listened to much classical music in a while.  Baroque was always some of my favorite - the passion is explosive!  I used to fall asleep to music like this in my Pre-Derek age.  Some find it a bit too fiery to fall asleep to, but for some reason it just melts my worries and relaxes me.  Also, the pure abstraction that exists in just melody alone is very freeing... I love rock music and various other kinds, but this is different - and in that difference it is fantastic.


I would like to fall asleep to music like this again, but I doubt Derek would like that much.
But, as for the title... I have been listening to this music while reading my Art Theory... it really helps in blocking out the noises of my apartment (mostly the incredibly loud brothel in business above me) while at the same time relaxing and focusing me.  It's lovely.  My Art Theory selection for tonight was Roger Fry's Vision and Design, 1920, Henri Focillon's The Life of Forms in Art, 1934 and a study of Alfred H. Barr's 'The Development of Abstract Art', 1936 (A chart that shows the development of styles during this time of modernism).

I just feel good ^^

Also, tonight's episode of Heroes was incredible, like it always is!  I just can't wait for next week.

My favorite song I heard on Pandora tonight was Busoni's Toccatas (I believe that is what it is called).  I just love that song.

8:05 PM

Vice Presidential Debate

So... I just watched the Vice Presidential Debate.  I'm pretty politically apathetic - I'm slightly liberal, and usually identify with the Democrats.  But... what the fuck?  I can't even start to take Palin seriously.  She is an insult to all those with a vagina (who take said organ seriously).  And the incessant winking!  Anyone who even slightly sees her as an alternative to Hillary Clinton is an idiot - plain and simple.  She refuses to use specifics in her arguments, and just uses buzz words constantly.  She's like a walking, talking marketing device.  She was also too much of a pussy to mention her ACTUAL feelings on civil rights for homosexuals.  I'm just hurt as a woman right now...

5:54 PM

HALLOWEEN EMERGENCY!!!

I am having an emergency!  I need a Waloli/Wa-Lolita costume for Halloween!!  But I suck at sewing... and Steve's too busy... and they're SO expensive!!


If anyone can find a cute one that's under $70, let me know, please!!! ^^;  Otherwise I don't know what I'll do ;-;...  I've googled for HOURS!  I bet Adil could find one (this is a *wink* *wink* *nudge* *nudge* kind of moment).

Otherwise I will give up this weekend and butcher my own... =_=

6:28 AM

...Why?

They put a cubs hat on the Picasso statue at Daley Plaza....


....=_=

3:42 PM

Visit with the Surgeon...

Well, I had my meeting with a surgeon today about the 'lymph node'.  He examined it thoroughly (which hurt) and then decided it was a bit high to be lymph node.  He is pretty sure it's a cyst.  My mom then mentioned the lymphoma in my family, and then he proceeded to feel up all the lymph nodes in my body (even the groin!  Exciting!).


He told me the pain is due to the fact that the cyst lies right over a nerve that goes over my head.  He also said it might be slightly due to strain because of all the reading I do.  But, he didn't want to remove it, because he believes it to be benign.  In two months if it doesn't go away he wants me to come back.

But... why would I get a cyst, you ask?  People get cysts all the time, but this one is more related to infection.  He asked me if I had any sores or lacerations on my head... which I said 'no' to, but then remembered all the cuts on my head due to this horrible compulsion I have to pick my head... thus resulting in pretty deep cuts sometimes.

But, it's still all good.  I just don't know what to do about the pain in the mean time because pain killers haven't been helping much.  I've been trying meditation and relaxation techniques.

On the plus side, I did get to come home and play with halloween things.... though, I have an exam tomorrow and lots of things to do, but I'm just so stressed :\...

My mom bought this 3 foot tall zombie butler who's eyes light up and he says weird things.  He also holds a candy dish.  He was quite the steal for $25 at Jewel.  I bought some lights and bloody clings.  I need more stuff.  

Oh, and the zombie butler's name is 'Nigel'. 

Hopefully my bestest friend, Steve will be making me a wa loli costume ^^  Yeah!

11:33 AM

Lindsay and Derek's Cleaning Service

So... apparently I've started a new business.  And apparently it's a not-for-profit!  It's main role is to eliminate the ridiculous messes that our roommates create without any responsibility on their part.  But, the best part is that they are so talented in their mess-making that they are able to undo our work within minutes of their return.  When a confrontation is attempted we are usually told that they are 'too busy' or that our place 'doesn't need cleaning'.  Which really only further attests to their ultimate piggy-ness.

And I'm not really worried about them reading this and whining and/or bitching - because as I mentioned before they are far too busy to clean up after themselves, and therefore far too busy to read my blog.  The only person who really reads it is Troy, and strangely I am not upset at his piggy-ness this time (mostly because he is absent this weekend...and he's been cleaning up his act lately)

So, yesterday afternoon - just like every Saturday afternoon- I cleaned the communal areas of the apartment head to toe.  Derek only vacuumed, but he had back problems that day, so he was excused of duties.  But, after cleaning for about an hour and half, my roommates Paul and Andrew returned from studying at Caribou Coffee.  Now, an hour and a half of cleaning is not so bad, but it's what I was cleaning up that angered me.

I cleaned up wax and burnt paper from Andrew and Paul screwing around with candles.
I cleaned up powdered cherry drink from Paul.
I cleaned up oodles of dust, but that's just because of the opened windows and lack of ventilation.
I cleaned up grease that was splattered all over my rice cooker, presumably from Andrew not noticing or caring where their grease from the Forman Grille splatters.
I cleaned up water all over the counters from careless dish washers.
I cleaned up dishes that were still dirty after they were washed due to poor quality of dish washing.
I didn't clean the microwave, because I rarely touch the effing microwave and it was disgusting.
I didn't clean the stove because I'm sick and fucking tired of constantly cleaning it because no one can clean up after themselves.  I don't ever get anything all over the stove, so it's hard for me to imagine how much my roommates manage to dirty it so.
Last week I cleaned up dry eraser marker dust that was all over my nice coffee table... this took quite a while since it nearly stained the table.  I was then given the response of 'aw... sorry' with a slight chuckle revealing the lack of remorse on the part of the dust maker.

I mean, really all people need to do is clean up after themselves, a task I have never found even slightly difficult in all my twenty years of living.  Yes, it was a bit hard up until the age of six, but I managed this skill eventually.

And the excuse of not having enough time is incredibly insulting.  If you don't have enough time to clean up your breakfast mess in the morning, wake up the extra two minutes it requires to clean said mess up.  Also, I manage to clean up my own mess, and everyone else's while working, going to class, doing my homework, and tutoring - and I still have a little time for this blog, video games and pleasure reading.

I think it must really come down to selfishness.

So, back to my roommates' return yesterday.  Derek and I told them how we cleaned and we were met with the response 'it didn't need to be cleaned' and an utter confusedness as to why we could possibly be angry with them.  So, as usual I just bottled the anger and tried to distract myself with playing video games (I haven't really played any in three weeks).

But, that's not the point.

Derek and I wake up this morning (well... afternoon for me, I didn't quite feel like getting up due to a combination of pain and depression), and what are we greeted with this morning?  Crumbs all over the table and cereal clogging the sink.  How incredibly nice.  There are already crumbs on every surface I cleaned.  So, obviously Derek and I are fuming mad.  It's difficult to imagine that these people we live with are supposed to be our friends, since they obviously care little about us and do not respect us.  This has led Derek and I to want to find our own apartment - maybe with Adil if he wouldn't mind the commute.

So, that's all pretty stressful, right?  Besides my work, school, tests, tutoring and Nihongo Club (that I really have little time for now, all of a sudden) I have yet another stressor.  I have had an enlarged lymph node on the back of my upper, left neck for 8 weeks now.  I have an appointment with a surgeon for a consultation tomorrow.  It has shrunk a bit in the last two days, which worries me (because it shrunk before and then became huge).  This worries me, because I am having horrible migraines on that side of my head, including the lymph node, accompanied with horrible nausea.   I've grown accustomed slightly to the pain, but the pain killers available to me are ineffective, leaving me to just try and sleep it off.  

I'm worried about being told tomorrow that it's not too enlarged.  Last week it was huge, but the week before that it was about this size, and two weeks before that it was huge.  It seems to change - maybe it's stress related.  However, if that was the case it would be huge right now due to my highly stressful roommates.

Right now, as I type, Andrew is cooking on the Forman Grille.  What are the chances he will notice grease splattering all over my rice cooker?

At this point I'm pretty sure it's Paul's cereal clogging the drain, since Andrew just looked at it and said 'sick'.  Chances are we'll tell Paul about it and he'll never get around to cleaning it.  Just like last week within hours of my cleaning the apartment he came back and asked to use my rice and rice cooker.  I let him, but when I walked through the kitchen an hour later there was rice everywhere.  Once confronted Paul said he would clean it up, which he never did, and I eventually just gave up.

That really has become my attitude lately with them.  I just kind of say 'fuck it, I give up'.   They are slobs and probably will always be slobs.  I don't care if their feelings are hurt by this, because they obviously don't care about my feelings.

I'm just so incredibly pissed right now!  It's hard to think of anything else... :\  I guess I'll just go do some homework and slowly explode in anger.

I secretly hope something is wrong with this whole lymph node thing because I could use the vacation.

I just noticed this whole post was a bit of a bitch-a-thon.  I sort of feel bad, but not.  I actually feel more bad for those of you reading this, because it's probably not as interesting as my usual post - I had a whole other post planned for this weekend but I am just so frustrated.

I need another walk on the beach with Adil :P